• Felix

    From Sean Dennis@618:618/10 to All on Thu Feb 11 21:00:16 2021
    Hello All,

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire procedure and I was holding him as his soul left his body. The vet gave me a hair clipping and the vet tech took a plaster paw print for me. I am having Felix cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. I'll also get the plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.

    My dad, who is quite the woodworker, is going to make me an oak box to put Felix's ashes in. He will hold a place of honor on my desk.

    I am still in shock and a bit numb about it right now but it'll hit me eventually.

    This is the first time in 25 years that I haven't had a pet. I already feel lonely. I can't wait to get out of the motorhome now so I won't feel so bad.

    Felix was in a bad way. He lost ten pounds, half of his body weight, in six days and was having real problems breathing as he had to breathe in and out of his mouth. He was so weak he couldn't use the litterbox. Last night, he was trying to drink water and he collapsed in front of his water fountain.

    I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of me that is resenting my decision. Felix was my first personal pet (one that I was fully responsible for) so this is hitting me hard. You'd think at 48 and all the things I've been through it wouldn't be so bad but it is.

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.

    Later,
    Sean

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  • From Warpslide@618:500/23 to Sean Dennis on Fri Feb 12 02:59:26 2021
    On 11 Feb 2021, Sean Dennis said the following...

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire procedure
    and I was holding him as his soul left his body.

    I am so sorry! I know personally that it isn't easy being there for them during that procedure. It's horrible.

    But they are family and deserve to be with loved ones as they pass.

    I am still in shock and a bit numb about it right now but it'll hit me eventually.

    For me it's the mundane moments when you go to another room and catch a shape or colour with your eye & put your hand out to pet them, only to realize it's a towel. I still do that & Nikko has been gone for almost two years now.

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.

    It really amazing how these fuzzy little buggers can work their way into our hearts.

    Again my condolences. I'm thinking of you & Felix.


    Jay

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  • From Arelor@618:250/24 to Sean Dennis on Fri Feb 12 03:02:12 2021
    Re: Felix
    By: Sean Dennis to All on Thu Feb 11 2021 09:00 pm

    Hello All,

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire procedure and I was holding him as his soul left his body. The
    vet gave me a hair clipping and the vet tech took a plaster paw print for me. I am having Felix cremated and his ashes will
    returned to me. I'll also get the plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.

    My dad, who is quite the woodworker, is going to make me an oak box to put Felix's ashes in. He will hold a place of honor
    my desk.

    I am still in shock and a bit numb about it right now but it'll hit me eventually.

    This is the first time in 25 years that I haven't had a pet. I already feel lonely. I can't wait to get out of the motorho
    now so I won't feel so bad.

    Felix was in a bad way. He lost ten pounds, half of his body weight, in six days and was having real problems breathing as
    had to breathe in and out of his mouth. He was so weak he couldn't use the litterbox. Last night, he was trying to drink
    water and he collapsed in front of his water fountain.

    I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of me that is resenting my decision. Felix was my first personal pet
    (one that I was fully responsible for) so this is hitting me hard. You'd think at 48 and all the things I've been through i
    wouldn't be so bad but it is.

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.

    Later,
    Sean

    ... Pets were put on Earth to show that unconditional love is real.

    I know it does not mean much when somebody seys this over the Internet, but I am incredibly sorry.

    Going throught this sort of thing is hard for many reasons. Often, you can't share your pain with friends, because they will
    snap with some stupid answer, such as "What's the drama about? It is only a goddamn dog/cat/horse!"

    Suffering over whether you made the right decision or not is more frequent than people realizes. Either people wonders whether
    they waited too long to put an end to the pet's suffering, or they wonder whether they did it too soon. In the end of the day
    is a very hard question to answer. I think it is important you accept that you did what you thought best when you thouight it
    was best. That is more than lots of domestic animals get.

    In the end of the day, it is the good memories that remain. I find miself clinging to the ones of pets long gone.

    Be well.

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  • From Gamgee@618:250/24 to Sean Dennis on Fri Feb 12 07:31:00 2021
    Sean Dennis wrote to All <=-

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire
    procedure and I was holding him as his soul left his body. The
    vet gave me a hair clipping and the vet tech took a plaster paw
    print for me. I am having Felix cremated and his ashes will be
    returned to me. I'll also get the plaster paw print when I pick
    up his ashes.

    <snip>

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.

    So sorry to hear, Sean. I think this is one of the absolute hardest things a person can go through. Thoughts and prayers for you and Felix.



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  • From Deon George@618:510/2 to Sean Dennis on Sat Feb 13 10:36:06 2021
    Re: Felix
    By: Sean Dennis to All on Thu Feb 11 2021 09:00 pm

    Hey,

    I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of me that is resenting my decision. Felix was my first personal pet (one

    I feel your pain.

    I (begrudgingly) made the same decision for very similar reasons a couple of years ago. Its sad to say goodbye to a pet that's been a good part of your life for years.

    Since we dont know what happens next, I just hope it is another new chapter for that soul.

    ...oEoN

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  • From Daryl Stout@618:250/33 to Sean Dennis on Fri Feb 12 06:09:00 2021
    Sean,

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire procedure
    and I was holding him as his soul left his body. The vet gave me a
    hair clipping and the vet tech took a plaster paw print for me. I am having Felix cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. I'll also
    get the plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.

    My condolences to you, friend. Been there, done that, with numerous pets
    over the years.

    I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of me that is resenting my decision. Felix was my first personal pet (one that I was fully responsible for) so this is hitting me hard. You'd think at 48
    and all the things I've been through it wouldn't be so bad but it is.

    I cried like a baby for 15 minutes the day my late wife, Janice, and I,
    had to have our dachshund put down. So, if you need a good cry, go for it.

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than expected.

    Take all the time you need...we understand.

    ... Pets were put on Earth to show that unconditional love is real.

    Amen to that!! Plus, if the pets didn't like a visitor, chances are
    their owner wouldn't either.

    The dachshund Janice had when I first met her (named "Sweetie"),
    apparently resented me...she pooped on my shoes. Maybe "Sheetie" would
    have been more appropriate. <G>

    The dachshund Janice had when we got married...must have wanted me.
    He would let me give him belly rubs, but he would NOT let Janice do
    likewise. She'd put him on his back in "the wolfpack correction method".
    That made her so angry, when Fritz would submit to me, but not to her. <G>

    Two days before I proposed to her, I went to visit her at her
    apartment...and he was thrilled to see me. She asked me if I wanted
    to walk the weiner widget, and I said "Sure!!". He was on one of the retractable leashes...which I initially thought were fantastic...as it
    let the dog go in the poop filled grass, and I could stay on the
    sidewalk.

    Well, I was holding the leash in front of my groin...that was my
    first mistake. Somehow, the leash came off his collar, retracted at
    full speed, and popped me in the groin (talk about a kick in the
    b@ll$)!! I fell to the ground, and then the dachshund jumped on my
    groin, with the look on his face "Is there something wrong??!!". :P

    Janice had gone into the apartment, but realized I hadn't followed
    her in. She came back outside, and was horrified to find me on the
    sidewalk in agony. She asked "What happened??", and in agony, I said
    "I got bit by a leash". Well, she got the dog inside first (dachshunds
    have a mind of their own <G>), and then helped me inside. I was still
    hurting, and thought I was in mortal danger...as males can bleed to
    death from an injury in that area.

    So, I dropped my pants and underwear, to have her "take a look" (I
    was in such pain, that sex was the last thing on my mind). I thought
    she'd dump me like a hot rock, for "exposing myself". I asked her "Do
    you think any less of me??". She replied "I give you credit for your
    common sense. I would've called the paramedics if I had seen blood".

    I knew, right then, that THIS was the woman I was going to marry...
    and proposed to her the next day.

    A couple of years before her death from a heart attack at 48, we
    were on the Futon, and he was at her feet. She was asleep (being both
    diabetic and narcoleptic), and I either looked at him funny, or he
    perceived me as a threat. He started showing his teeth, growling,
    and coming toward me in attack mode. Well, it was if The Good Lord
    told her "Your husband is about to die at the hands of your dog".
    She sprang up, as if given a shock, and screamed "FRITZ!! NO!!".

    I backed up, and popped him on his butt as he jumped off the Futon,
    still snarling. Now, this woman...who was dead to the world seconds earlier...is now moving as if Satan and the whole host of Hell was
    after her. She's screaming at the top of her lungs "IN YOUR CARRIER!!
    NOW!! MOVE IT, LARD @$$!!" I don't know if I was more in shock from
    the dog's actions, or hers (so much for a quiet petit, woman). He
    nearly bit her, as she got him into his carrier, and locked the door.

    She growled "Overgrown four legged sausage ball!!". I asked her
    "What would you have done, had he gotten to my face??". She looked
    at me, dead serious, and said "First, I would've taken care of you.
    Then, I would've killed me a dog. I will NOT let an animal rule me
    in my own house!!"...and that really set him off!! She looked at me,
    and sweetly said "Excuse me, darling. I'll be right back!!". She had
    fire in her eyes...it was the angriest that I ever saw her.

    By this time, Fritz was truly ballistic. She grabbed the water bottle
    and a high pitched training device (she called it "Mister Blue Dude"),
    and both squirted him, and hit the button, and yelled "I can take it
    longer than you can, fatso!!". I thought for sure the neighbors would
    call the cops on us, as it sounded like we were fighting. Her Mom (who
    passed away 6 months ago) said "Janice was so d@mn protective of you,
    it was a sin". It took the dog a few days to "mellow out"..we never
    figured out what set him off.

    Another time, Janice had given him some green beans to eat. Now,
    giving chocolate to a dog is POISON...but green beans and carrots
    are good for them. Well, she put the green beans in his dish...yet,
    he walked up to them, sniffed them, and walked off. Janice groaned
    "Great!! I forgot to salt them!!". I exclaimed "What??!! Does he want
    a bottle of red wine to go with his beans??"...and she growled "He
    isn't getting any of my Jamaica White Rum". <G>

    But, Fritz became diabetic, resistant to the insulin, then went blind
    from glaucoma and cataracts. Yet, he had a working nose, and a full set
    of teeth. We knew it was the only humane thing to do (putting him down),
    but it didn't make it any easier. As noted, I cried like a baby for 15
    minutes afterwards...but Janice stayed in there, until Fritz was gone.
    He was 11 when we put him down, although dachshunds can live at least
    15 years or so...even with all their health issues. While they are
    hard to housebreak, and stubborn...they are very loyal to their owners.

    We got a new one 3 months after Fritz was put down, named Slinky. But,
    I re-homed him the day Janice died nearly 14 years ago...as I couldn't
    afford to keep him. Plus, after Janice's funeral in Arkansas, I had to
    go to Florida for a second funeral (she's buried in a cemetery in Apopka, where her Dad lives now...as noted, her Mom died last August). So, I "got
    a double dose". I went back to visit her grave a year after her death,
    and just like when Fritz had to be put down, I cried at her grave for 15 minutes.

    I know it's a hard time for you emotionally, but I hope some of the
    moments I noted made you smile. The thing is...whether our loved ones
    were spouses, family, or pets...you have all the wonderful memories that
    no one can take away. :)

    Daryl

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  • From Daryl Stout@618:250/33 to Arelor on Fri Feb 12 06:10:00 2021
    In the end of the day, it is the good memories that remain. I find
    miself clinging to the ones of pets long gone.

    Both for pets and family members...spouses or otherwise. And, for so
    many, their pets are their kids.

    Daryl

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  • From Zip@618:500/27 to Sean Dennis on Sat Feb 13 07:53:16 2021
    Dear Sean,

    On 11 Feb 2021, Sean Dennis said the following...
    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the entire procedure
    and I was holding him as his soul left his body. The vet gave me a hair clipping and
    the vet tech took a plaster paw print for me. I am having Felix
    cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. I'll also get the
    plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.

    I'm very sorry for your loss. :-(

    My thoughts are with you, and I'm crying as I write this. Because I know just what it feels like...

    My best and dearest friend -- my Saint Bernard "Båtsman" -- went over the bridge on September 11, 2015 due to bone cancer in one of his front legs. Me and my father were there with him at the vet, me resting my hand on him as he made the journey. He always knew that when I was around, there was nothing to worry about. And he always knew that wherever he last saw me, I would reappear. When I got him as a rescue, I made a promise to him -- that he would never have to look for another home, as he had been relocated several times. And I'll always keep that promise. He's got his forever home here with me.

    His urn is in a display cabinet right beside his dog bed and my bed, along with some of the best photos I have of him. His plush toys -- among them his pink plush pig -- the first toy I got for him -- are still on the living room rug, as well as the plush rabbit beside the front door. He always knew where to find them when someone came to visit. His leash and collar are on the hat shelf in the hallway, just where they should be.

    I'll always be with him, no matter what, and one day we'll reunite -- of that I am sure. And I'm certain that the same things holds for you and Felix.

    Hugs to you,

    Best regards
    Björn

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  • From August Abolins@618:250/1.9 to Zip on Mon Feb 15 14:12:00 2021
    Hello Zip!

    ** On Saturday 13.02.21 - 07:53, Zip wrote to Sean Dennis:

    My best and dearest friend -- my Saint Bernard "Båtsman" --
    went over the bridge on September 11, 2015 due to bone
    cancer in one of his front legs.

    My buddy, Monster (1994 - Sep 15 2009) was a source of humor,
    frustration and joy.

    https://photos.app.goo.gl/dLi6mrsuVTxZUHy8A

    He was about 74 lbs at his heaviest, but slim and athletic.

    The photo with the date was taken on his last day. I had to put
    him down. His hind legs gradually but ultimately gave up on him.
    I hope that I gave that boy some good times in his 15 years.

    Me and my father were there with him at the vet, me resting
    my hand on him as he made the journey.

    I stuck with Monster as he took his final big breath.

    ...His leash and collar are on the hat shelf in the hallway,
    just where they should be.

    Likewise. Now over 21 years, his last collar and tags hang by
    the door.

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  • From August Abolins@618:250/1.9 to Sean Dennis on Mon Feb 15 14:30:00 2021
    Hello Sean Dennis!

    ** On Thursday 11.02.21 - 21:00, Sean Dennis wrote to All:

    Felix is now in peace. I was with him throughout the
    entire procedure and I was holding him as his soul left his
    body. The vet gave me a hair clipping and the vet tech
    took a plaster paw print for me. I am having Felix
    cremated and his ashes will be returned to me. I'll also
    get the plaster paw print when I pick up his ashes.

    We find ways to get through the process of losing our friends.
    Sounds like yours is a good solution.

    My last buddy was Monster (a link to some pics in another
    message). I brought him back from the vet and buried him myself
    near the house.

    I am still in shock and a bit numb about it right now but
    it'll hit me eventually.

    I was a bit of sobbing mess at the vet's on Sep 15, 2009.

    Felix was in a bad way. He lost ten pounds, half of his
    body weight, in six days and was having real problems

    When an animal can't eat or drink, the body starts to shut down
    pretty fast. Felix was probably just waiting things out and
    bearing the pain. You did the right thing.

    I know that I did the humane thing but there is a part of
    me that is resenting my decision. Felix was my first
    personal pet (one that I was fully responsible for) so this
    is hitting me hard. You'd think at 48 and all the things
    I've been through it wouldn't be so bad but it is.

    I went through the same journey. I rescued Monster from being
    practically chained up 24/7 for the first two years of his life
    by my own family at the time. I assumed responsibility and
    changed his life.

    I'll get through this ... just will take longer than
    expected.

    You take as long as you need.

    ... Pets were put on Earth to show that unconditional love
    is real.

    Yeah.. But most of the time they just want food. ;)

    Still have the cats pictured with Monster in the link mentioned
    earlier. They are coming up to 14 yrs each.
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  • From Zip@618:500/27 to August Abolins on Wed Feb 17 10:34:37 2021
    Hello August!

    Thank you for your reply!

    On 15 Feb 2021, August Abolins said the following...
    My buddy, Monster (1994 - Sep 15 2009) was a source of humor, frustration and joy.

    https://photos.app.goo.gl/dLi6mrsuVTxZUHy8A

    Aww, very cute! <3

    I hope that I gave that boy some good times in his 15 years.

    I'm confident you did!

    Likewise. Now over 21 years, his last collar and tags hang by
    the door.

    Yep. Will always do, here, too!

    Best regards
    Zip

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